Saturday, July 5, 2008
To Be Real
The Skin Horse had lived longer in the nursery than any of the others. He was so old that his brown coat was bald in patches and showed the seams underneath, and most of the hairs in his tail had been pulled out to string bead necklaces. He was wise, for he had seen a long succession of mechanical toys arrive to boast and swagger, and by-and-by break their mainsprings and pass away, and he knew that they were only toys, and would never turn into anything else. For nursery magic is very strange and wonderful, and only those playthings that are old and wise and experienced like the Skin Horse understand all about it.
"What is REAL?" asked the Rabbit one day, when they were lying side by side near the nursery fender, before Nana came to tidy the room. "Does it mean having things that buzz inside you and a stick-out handle?"
"Real isn't how you are made," said the Skin Horse. "It's a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real."
"Does it hurt?" asked the Rabbit.
"Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. "When you are Real you don't mind being hurt."
"Does it happen all at once, like being wound up," he asked, "or bit by bit?"
"It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."
"I suppose you are real?" said the Rabbit. And then he wished he had not said it, for he thought the Skin Horse might be sensitive. But the Skin Horse only smiled.
The Skin Horse Tells His Story
"The Boy's Uncle made me Real," he said. "That was a great many years ago; but once you are Real you can't become unreal again. It lasts for always."
The Rabbit sighed. He thought it would be a long time before this magic called Real happened to him. He longed to become Real, to know what it felt like; "(The Velveteen Rabbit, by Margery Williams)
In our Every Day Lives
I hope that my brother doesn't mind that I'm sharing his thoughts from a week or so ago. I just couldn't help but take these things in and really gain some insight for myself on not just the act of making a covenant but actually living the covenants I make. Sometimes it's hard to put these things into words. But for me, it's not enough to know the facts about the Savior and his gospel, I feel that I should be incorporating the gospel into my daily living. Ben shared some of these ideas in great ways. . .
"Our relationship with others is directly related to the covenants we make with God.
What do I mean by this?
Aside from promising to love our neighbors as ourselves, lift one another’s burdens, worship together, and to share the Gospel, there are other aspects to being part of a covenant people that makes living the Gospel unique.

First is being a covenant person.
When we personally keep our covenants – we dedicate ourselves to this pursuit, repenting often and pushing forward – we change. We start asking interesting questions like, “How do I develop more charity for others?” “I really want to do XYZ, but what would the Lord have me do?” “Is there someone I know who needs help today?” “That kid really is noisy. Wait, I have my own noisy kids too. Perhaps what those parents really need is an understanding smile?”
This is because of the following phenomenon. When we keep our covenants, we gain the companionship of the Spirit, which in turn changes us into peculiar people:
Gal. 5: 22
22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,
Eph. 5: 9
9 (For [also,] the fruit of the Spirit is in all goodness and righteousness and truth;)
As the spirit works in us, we find that covenant keeping is not a solitary act. It extends to others around us. For example, and I know I’ve told the story before. When I was 13 my mother was extremely ill with cancer. Our house was painted, sprinklers installed, a broken sewer line dug up and replaced by ordinary people who honored they’re covenants and sought to serve someone in need.
Second is being a covenant family.
I learned about the importance of covenants and how they work from my family. My father taught the covenant lessons for FHE, and we talked about each new covenant we would make when growing up in the Church – baptism, Priesthood, marriage. But it was in living those that the beauty of covenant keeping came through in my family.
I come from a family of 10 kids. Now by no means are we a perfect family. But we are very close and we understand our roles with each other. It is one of the many things I look forward to each day to check my email or a family member’s blog to see what is going on in Kentucky, Boston, New York City, Virginia, Maryland, Alaska, Utah, or here in CA. We offer support, friendship, laughs, and advice to each other daily. We understand that not all of us would approach a situation the same and we accept that. We understand that our advice is just that and may be left unheeded. But in the end, when it comes down to the nitty gritty of life, we are family – we’re there to fast and pray for each other when a child is born with a heart defect, praise each others’ kids’ creativity and successes, and generally be a safe haven from the wiles of the world. I hope to carry this on with my children because it has been invaluable to me in my life.
Third is we are a covenant people.
If I were to take the microcosm of my family and extend it out into this Church, I see the same support offered here (minus the emails.) We strive for happiness. We strive for humility, charity, and love. In short we try to emulate the people of Alma who were baptized at the waters of Mormon. We are…
Mosiah 18:8-10
9 Yea, and are willing to mourn with those that mourn; yea, and comfort those that stand in need of comfort, and to stand as witnesses of God at all times and in all things, and in all places that ye [we] may be in, even until death, that ye [we] may be redeemed of God, and be numbered with those of the first resurrection, that ye [we] may have eternal life—
10 Now I say unto you, if this be the desire of your hearts, what have you against being baptized in the name of the Lord, as a witness before him that ye have entered into a covenant with him, that ye will serve him and keep his commandments, that he may pour out his Spirit more abundantly upon you?
In discussing this talk with my wife, we both came to realize how good this ward has been to us and to each other. We feel recharged after each Sunday and we know it comes from the dedication and preparation of each member to contribute to each other’s spiritual well being. As a ward and even as a Stake we do some of the most selfless acts to help lift one another. We take time to visit each other once a month. Some give up a day of work to chaperone youth at a youth conference. Others faithfully fulfill temple assignments to allow those who otherwise would not be able to take on the covenants of the Gospel to do so. When we are sick, the ward unites to support the afflicted with temporal and spiritual service. This list goes on and on."
Aren't these great ideas and examples? Well, I think so. What good is it to be book smart if we don't apply that great knowledge to our life's decisions? So what good is it to know the facts and even go through the motions of covenant making if we have no intention of implementing change in our own lives.
Let's see. The covenants we make talk about us being willing to be like the Savior. Is that so bad? Too boring? Right. They also talk about us being willing to serve others/be kind and helpful. That can't be too much, right? They talk about us being willing to share our thoughts about the Savior, Jesus Christ with other, if they want. I don't know. Hmmm. I can talk about tv shows, books, clothes, hair styles, etc. I guess talking about the creator of this world and the one being who is responsible for my existence day to day also can't be too much to ask.
Anyway, there are so many things that living the gospel covers. So I'll just have to plug away at it and keep my attitude in check. I'll be happier. I know I'm so much happier now than I ever would have been because I was willing to stick to my covenants.
Thanks, Ben, for the wonderful thoughts! And congrats on your new "little" baby boy!!!
Monday, June 23, 2008
We talked about two books that were about Emma Smith. One was, Emma Smith: An Elect Lady by Susan Easton Black and the other that was brought up was Judge Me, Dear Reader by Erwin Wirkus. We had a wonderful discussion on the two books and on Joseph and Emma Smith and their challenges and on what became of Emma after Joseph was killed in Carthage.
Emma, was a strong willed and upright woman and very well educated for the time. She remarried a rough man who was a womanizer and was abusive-the opposite of Joseph. She stayed in Nauvoo after all of the saints were driven out or left to travel west for religious freedoms.
There are a lot of recorded instances where she was very mean and angry and spiteful towards others. She made some very questionable life decisions. Anyway, I thought quite a bit out all of this but I still don't want to judge her too harshly. She faced a lot of very very hard circumstances that could have contributed to her bitterness.
No matter what her life's outcome, I thought long and hard about a quote that came from one of the books.
It reads:
"Brigham Young was absolutely correct in his statement, because Joseph would find her in the hell that she had created for herself, and I firmly believe that, because of his love for her, he would redeem her from that state. I have real sympathy for Emma and see her as a person who became burned-out mentally and therefore spiritually. I believe that she suffered a severe mental breakdown when she saw her dead husband. We must also remember that she had asked Joseph to come back to Nauvoo even though he had said that if he were to return and stand trial he would be killed or 'he was not a prophet of God'."
The thought that really hit me was " in the hell that she had created for herself". I think we all create our own "hells" in this life. We are mean to people, maybe we covet another person, or we put our own wants before the needs of others, or maybe we are even overly judgemental, or we feel the need to be better than everyone, or need attention on a regular basis so we back bite or act innocent while backing up some terrible power struggles, etc. etc. etc. Hell is all about having regrets and living in the sadness of those thoughts. Hell is not forgiving. Hell is not loving unconditionally. Hell is not being loved and not knowing why and wanting it so badly. Hell is not having faith.
Regrets, regrets, regrets.
It kind of backs up another interesting idea someone shared on a program talking about out of body experiences where certain people had died and come back and spoke about it. One guy said that after his spirit left his body he was bombarded by a constant barrage from people who he had hurt or disappointed. They would come at him with questions of why. That stuck in my head at the time as quite possibly more of what I would have thought hell to be like. No rest just sadness and regrets and anxiety.
So, my question is,
do we really want to live in hell?
Then why create it?
Forgive.
Love.
Have faith.
Live a life with ALL of these qualities.
Could it be this simple?
It looks like we get to chose . . .
heaven
or
hell.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
The Baptist Preacher
I had to shut the door on him, sadly enough. And as I walked back to packing up our home and taking care of our family, I thought, for a preacher he sure did a couple Non-Christlike things by telling a lie about the fact that he didn't care if I wanted to come to his church (or he would have left on the higher note we had been on). And becoming aggressive in his questions on points that he knew we would differ on. And not being kind and respectful to me and my family during an obviously stressful time.
How many times do we contribute to the internal conflicts that those we go to church with have? How many times are we really just looking out for our own agenda and not applying actual Christ-like behaviors in our lives?
How many times are we more interested in a certain result than the others our actions might affect.
Are we more interested in getting a calling or assignment for the attention it would bring us over the great opportunity it might bring for us to serve others or achieve personal growth?
Now don't get me wrong. As responsible, intelligent people we are responsible for our own emotions and reactions to everything in our lives. I'm not giving an out to anyone.
But don't we have to take the time to consider our own actions and how that affects the world around us.
Consider this:
8 For they saw and beheld with great sorrow that the people of the church began to be lifted up in the pride of their eyes, and to set their hearts upon riches and upon the vain things of the world, that they began to be scornful, one towards another, and they began to persecute those that did not believe according to their own will and pleasure.
9 And thus, in this eighth year of the reign of the judges, there began to be great contentions among the people of the church; yea, there were envyings, and strife, and malice, and persecutions, and pride, even to exceed the pride of those who did not belong to the church of God.
10 And thus ended the eighth year of the reign of the judges; and the wickedness of the church was a great stumbling-block to those who did not belong to the church; and thus the church began to fail in its progress.
11 And it came to pass in the *commencement of the ninth year, Alma saw the wickedness of the church, and he saw also that the example of the church began to lead those who were unbelievers on from one piece of iniquity to another, thus bringing on the destruction of the people.
12 Yea, he saw great inequality among the people, some lifting themselves up with their pride, despising others, turning their backs upon the needy and the naked and those who were hungry, and those who were athirst, and those who were sick and afflicted. (Alma 4:8-10)
Look at verse 8! In the church people began to be hard on each other because some had less than them-not quite the right shoes, hat, dress, tie, calling, set of scriptures, hairdo, etc. You don't think that has an effect on the flow of the good things that can be done? Are you kidding? Do you think that you are building up those around you? Or are you assisting Satan in bringing misery into the lives of others? It's your test. You know your score. And yes, there is a score.
In our ward when one of my daughter's fellow classmates found out that her father was going to be in the Bishopric, it was said that she stated, "Good, now the Bishop with know how bad Lauren is." Abuse of power? yes. Painful for my daughter? yes. A stumbling block for Lauren? More of a refiner's fire. See, I've taught my kids that they have to learn from these kinds of things that happen all of their lives.
How does this look to others outside of the church or group? Well, they sure don't want to be a part of that kind of drama, now, do they? If they do, aren't you worried? I'd be.
BUT we can all fix the problemsand work towards better days fairly easily, if we chose. We can be more patient and tolarant not just on the surface but for real. We can be supportive and kind and listen. Do we REALLY need to be better than someone else at church? Why? What's the reward for that? If you need a medal work towards the Olympics or your local City League Tournament. There's real competition and politics. Enjoy.
The greatest reward we will ever get is the peace that comes with being sincere in our efforts to respect each other equally and in getting along in all circumstances.
Want to know how? There are a lot of great books to chose from. I'd start with the scriptures and go from there, personally. But because I'm a work in progress, I'll defer to other's with more wisdom and experience.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
On this Father's Day
Many times in our lives we are blessed with great people. These people are not great because they have great powers, or have great wealth, or have numerous powerful contacts. These people are great because in their lives they contribute to our lives in positive, constructive ways. They are great because they become people we can trust and relate to. And maybe best of all, they are great because we can learn from them.
I have been blessed with a great Father.
My Father is a great listener.
My Father is a great learner.
My Father is a great teacher.
My Father is a great supporter.
My Father is a great friend.
My Father has assisted me in making changes in my life that have shaped my life into a more fulfilling process. He has not pushed or pulled. He has lightly suggested when asked. He has followed his heart in what he talks about and how he discusses things. He has never let me off the hook when I have been wrong yet he has never condemned me for my own foibles. He is ok with my pace of learning and applying knowledge.
I know that my Father will always want what is best for me not what he thinks I should be.
THAT is why I can trust him and why I say with all sincerity he really is my friend.
I love you with all of my heart, Dad.